I wondered about the meaning of that statement – how unusual! I realized there is a whole culture referred to as “woke” which believes differently than my mentors who are considered “enlightened”. It made me chuckle. I definitely don’t fit into either category. It’s a wild time to be seeking joy and peace.
Did I think I was enlightened? Hahaha, that really made me laugh.
For the first time, I compared myself to an actual enlightened being. I’m just celebrating being able to eat at meal times, finding joy again after a challenging time, and learning to sit and feel my emotions for real, not just in concept.
If I’m anywhere on the timeline of enlightenment, I would be like a little baby fawn just plopped out of her mama, still in the birthing sack.
We will never live joyfully until we can feel our feelings without being attached. I understand this deeply and commit my life to healing and joy, but I am not a master of it.
The feeling of realizing that some people think I am enlightened made me laugh so hard!
Sister, just come and hang out with me for a day. I talk and talk and find humor in everything. I say the most random things out of nowhere just to see Gregg’s face and to expose my unusual brain.
I emotionally eat and still have to sing the ABC’s in my head just to stop thinking about how to “rescue” others with my Jesus complex. I’m good at an hour-long meditation, but I get too excited about things to be a calm enlightened being.
I have come a long way. I have made hard choices, walked through abuse, found love, and success, and helped others.
And I can see a world where religion, culture, race, and sex do not actually matter. They are just another way to cherish others. We connect deeply because we are alive and revel in the wonder of being human.
I think this just makes me human, just like you. Maybe my vision for humanity makes me more on the path to enlightenment than I realize? Maybe my commitment to this way of being makes me ready to take my first steps and run before I know it. I’m available for it. Maybe we all are.